Saturday, July 25, 2015

Psssss...Quiet Please!


At the university library, working on my last paper before I can officially throw in the towel for sophomore year. This place isn't as packed as it was last week but I guess everyone's tired and just trying to get through the week because one guy is snoring really loud right now. I'm not even joking, it's like bulldozer status...

最後のレポートを終わらすために大学の図書館に来ているのですが、先週と同じように生徒であふれています。みんな疲れているのか、わりとどんよりしています。わたしの後ろに座っている人はさっきからブルドーザー並みのうるささでいびきをかいて居眠りしています。

...oh wait, someone just woke him up.
LOL everyone looked up because the noise stopped all of a sudden.
Well we all understand the pain, bro.

あ、起きました。
急に音が止まってので周りが急に反応。(笑)
あともう一週間!頑張ってほしいです。



Yesterday was my last day at practice before I leave for France, and maybe the last day as a gymnast period because it's very unlikely I'll go back after I come back, the timing and all. What I felt more than anything was liberation. 4+ hours five days a week was tough but I saw sides of Japan - both positive and negative - that I would never have seen if I hadn't joined. I feel competent to be both Japanese or American in an international setting, not just a Japanese-American if you get what I mean. If you guys didn't know already, sports are where the Japanese culture is most apparent because of the apparent strict senpai-kohai structure and vivid societal rules. I was going back from a a 7 year gap so contrary to what people think about me going back for the competitions, I was actually going back to really get a sense of the Japanese culture that I never fully experienced in the States. I didn't see a point of me choosing a Japanese university of an American one if i didn't accomplish that. I just chose gymnastics because I had experience and because I really loved it. Anyways, I felt that I had absorbed all that I could and I really felt like it was time to move on to something else. Thank goodness "study abroad" rolled around at just the right time. I can also finally feel closure from gymnastics; when I quit when I was 12, my reasons were immature like "I'm scared" or "I don't wanna go to practice anymore." I guess I never really got over myself for quitting in the middle of something just because things got tough. I'm so glad I went back to the sport and was able to quit after feeling like I actually accomplished something from the sport, even if that achievement was not necessarily about the sport itself. And the girls were amazing. I could not have done this without the girls.

昨日で体操部を休部しました。留学後には多分もう再入部しないので引退(?)の方が正しいかもしれないですね。何よりも解放感を一番感じました。4時間以上の練習を週5で行うのは今思うと大変だったなと思いますが、実のりの多い一年3か月でした。周りはわたしが試合にでたから部活を始めたの思っている人が多いみたいですが、ちゃんと日本の文化を体験・勉強できる環境を見つけたいという気持ちの方が強かったです。これを達成できなかったら日本の大学に入学した理由がないと思いました。体操を選んだ理由は経験があって、楽しかったという思い出があったからです。たったの一年でしたが、体操部を通して日本のいい面も悪い面も発見することができたと思っています。でも、その場で学べることはもう吸収しきったなと思うし、そろそろ新しいことを始めてもいいかなという感じです。タイミングよく留学というオプションが出てきてラッキーです。あともう一つ良かったことが体操から気持ちよく引退できたことです。12歳で辞めた時は”怖い"とか"もうやりたくないから"という子供の甘い考えで急に決めてしまったことでしたが、今回は何かを成し遂げてから辞めることを決めれた感じがしてスッキリしてます。あ、あと同期の女の子達に本当に恵まれました。三人には本当に感謝です。


Still not quite over my love for the Suika Bar but I'm recently really into the Coconut Ice Bar.
It's like a concoction of all the goodness of coconut milk frozen into one amazing ice cream bar.
I love it.

 最近スイカバーを卒業してココナッツアイスバーにハマってます。
ココナツミルクを凍らせた感じで本当に美味しいです。


Talk soon!

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